Monday, June 30, 2008

I hate me.

I don't know what is happening to me but it seems like I'm falling apart at the seams.

I've been in tears several times over the past two weeks, I feel removed from everyone else, I absolutely hate myself, I feel fat, ugly and useless, no matter what I do I just can't seem to lose weight, I'm still not pregnant.

I'm ringing today to make that appointment with the psychologist. Maybe that'll help.

Sorry to post such a self loathing piece of crap.


MadCarlotta said...


Oh Nettie, you are not fat. You are not ugly, you are not useless. Pregnancy is not as easy to achieve as some people think.

Speaking to someone is probably a good idea, what concerns me most is the feeling you have that you are apart from everyone. :(

Shawna said...

Aw, sweetie...*bighugs*
I think you're very pretty; you've got a great smile, and very expressive eyes. And from the pictures I've seen that you've posted, you're not fat, either. And you're not useless. You mean a lot to the people here on the forum (even those of us who haven't gotten to meet you yet but would like to some day), and I'm sure you mean a lot to your husband and family and friends.

The only good advice I've ever heard given to women trying to get pregnant is to not try so hard. It seems to make it harder. I know that you really want to have a baby, and if it's meant to be, it will be.

Not much to offer, I know, but I mean every word. I know I haven't known you long, but I consider you a friend, and you can feel free to email me anytime. (


oppiejoe said...

I love you Nettie... ...

Hang in there *bighugs*